Sunday was my 30th birthday. It really doesn’t seem real. I still feel like I’m 25! I have lots of conflicting thoughts about turning 30. Mostly, I’m grateful. It’s kind of morbid but I think about all the people that haven’t made it this far and how grateful I’d be to make it to 90! Seriously, so many things can go wrong – whether it’s an illness or an accident – that can take you from this world. Ok – enough with the depressing thoughts.
My 20’s were great. I was able to go to graduate school and I married my high school sweetheart when I was 26. I’ve done a little bit of traveling. I live in California! I started this blog and have had a lot of free time to work on my hobbies. So overall I’ve been really blessed.
But there are always those thoughts in the back of your head about all the things you thought you would have accomplished by now. I thought I would have been married at 22 and have an amazing career and at least one kid by now. I think it’s also hard to be so involved in social media and blogging where you see these girls who have traveled the world, gotten married and have amazing careers – all before age 25. OR they have decided to start a family early and have at least two kids by the time they are 30. I don’t fit into either of these categories and it has me wondering if I did something wrong.
So in one sense I wish I could go back to 22 and “try again”. I don’t believe people when they say they have no regrets. I have a ton of regrets and wish I could go back and change things. But at the same time I know I’ve learned a lot. And hopefully I won’t make the same mistakes.
This past year I FINALLY found a somewhat permanent job in my field. I’m teaching preschool music part time. So I’m excited for my 30’s. I think they’ll bring more contentment, less insecurities, and more clarity. It just keeps getting better, right? 😉
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